I’m Not Special

The other day I had a beautiful woman stop me and tell me she started following me on Instagram and that my story is powerful. She went on to tell me how wonderful I am for being a foster mother and that the world needs more people like me.

While I appreciate her very kind and thoughtful words, it got me thinking. I am not special and I am not a hero. I’m simply a broken and flawed woman who reluctantly agreed to follow God’s plan for me to become a foster mom.

The truth is, I never would have chosen this path for myself. I desperately wanted to have biological children. My husband and I tried for years with no success. I prayed every single day for God to make me a mother. He started showing me very clear signs that my husband and I were being called to foster children. After two years of trying my best to ignore those signs I threw my hands up and said okay God, let’s do this.

God has a plan for all of us, we just have to follow it. I simply couldn’t imagine a life without bubba. I think it would be impossible for me to love him more even if I gave birth to him. Because of that love I’m willing to fight for him. To advocate for his best interests and stand up for what’s right.

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I often hear, “I could never foster, I’d get too attached.” Y’all, I’m a human being just like you. I’m ATTACHED! It would be DEVASTATING for me to loose the little boy who’s been mine for over a year. I know it’s a real possibility. What keeps me going is knowing that I’m giving bubba the best life possible in the mean time. I’ve created a loving place for him to call home. It is stable and will always be open to him even if we’re separated.

foster mom love

I cry, scream and fight EVERY SINGLE DAY! I’m frustrated by the system on the daily. But I know that this season is for a reason. I know God is in full control of the future and I KNOW in my heart that it’s good.

I’m not special, I’m not a hero. I’m blindly flowing God’s plan and trusting him to provide. You don’t have to wear a cape to foster, you just have to be a human with love and compassion for others. If I can do it, you can to.

foster mom

Interested in learning more about foster care and attachment? You’ll enjoy this post!

One thought on “I’m Not Special

  1. But you ARE special!!!!! You’re an inspiration to the young & the old.
    You’re an amazing woman and I’m so happy I started following you years ago. I’ve watched you grow in ways I couldn’t have imagined years ago. Keep doing what you’re doing. Let God continue to guide you! 🙂😘

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